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Friday, April 30, 2010

I slept half my day away after coming home from nikki's. HAHA.
I was v tired ): which is v weird considering all i did was record stuffs at the X country. NIKKI'S HOUSE IS COOL(: and v fun. HEHEH. we should crash her house more often i think we totally depleted her food stock at home. Ah, the wonders throwers can achieve.
I am v happy cos Mdm Faridah says my first position paper on Food Price Fluctuation has "depth as well as substance". Awww. that helped alot since i thought it was really damn fail. Maybe she said it because i still have one more to write. HAHA. oh well.
Today was good and sad in many different ways. I shall be a happy person and just look at everything from the happy view.
ANYWAY. "YENYIN, to prove that i am not a mugger, I SHALL NOT MUG FOR MID YEARS!"
hahaha. no i take that back. Must. Do. Well. For. Mid. Years. IF NOT YOU WONT SEE ME IN TRAININGS COS I'LL BE BANNED. hahah.
HAI. i better start backing up and start studying 3 weeks to Mid years good luck to me ): And yenyin has studied so much for bio i feel so stupid and ah.


Stored away never to return, I'll forget everything.
11:07 PM


Cross country was quite fun(:
Lazy Vaneh was at the finish line not running and being a lazy pig. sigh. what to do?
hi i love yenyin
2:07 PM

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

ANYWAY. today was v v v productive i say! (:
I finished 3/4 of my position paper i am v proud of that. And on top of that i studied bio! and i even slept and ate lunch outside today HAHAH. actually this was mostly because today was half day thats why lah. hahha.
Oh yes, Darling Yenyin helped me with my position paper. HEH YENYIN WO AI NI OK(: hahaa grammatical errors Ftw. HAHHA
Wheeeeeeee. my brain is starting to feel wozzy again. i should sleep soon. HAI. its wednesday tmr. Wlao eh so fast. Friday's cross country!!(: hehe. i am sweeping sweeping sweeping. Not running. HAHA. i am really very lazy. HAI.
I really hate running but yeah. Divya was v nice today she ran with me during PE(: 1.2KM i think. AHHA wlao, i was so slow but she still ran with me. HAAH she so nice(: i should probably try and run more so i wont make people run with me. haha.
Anyway. Meeting today!! Wheeee. Captains and Vice Capts nomnomnomzxs.
Jumps
Capt: YiLing
V.Capt: Sarah
Sprints
Capt: Meaghan
V.Capt:Diana
Long D
Capt: Cheryl
V.Capt: Hannah
Throws
Capt: Vaneh! I shall be biased and give myself many smiles :D:D
V.Capt: NICOLE :D:D
HEHE. Yaye and i am happy for reasons you dont need to know as well. I am a happy Huijuen fan(: Goodnight world.
10:34 PM

Monday, April 26, 2010

SO. Today was rather productive. HAHAHA.
HEHE. I DID 2 PARAGRAPHS FOR MY POSITION PAPER OMG ARE YOU PROUD OF ME I AM V PROUD OF MYSELF EVEN THOUGH I KNOW ITS NOT V GOOD AT LEAST I DID SOMETHING RIGHT(: AWW. My back is aching from not sitting up straight but oh well. On top of that, i did.. CHEM. haha. okay whatever. I did something and im happyy. Huijuen fan club has 31fans and counting! Yay (:
10:48 PM


SO. I have all the resources i need for my position paper. WHERE DO I START? I dont know really because its all so difficult and confusing im drowning in ASEAN and Economic terms that i have no idea what they mean. I am determined to finish my Food Price Fluctuation Position paper by Wednesday so i have like the remaining week to do the one on Basket of Currencies which i still have no idea what it means. Hai. Such stressful issues bring me to depression. Ah. someone tell me how to start ):
Midyears coming im so scared that im procrastinating too much then later no time to study then fail and then ah i dont want to think. I am not looking forward to the end of the term. Neither am i looking forward to the end of this year.
On a happier note..

NICOLE HENG LIN LI

and Fiona and Vanessa Pang are going for WALA!!!! (: Oh i am so proud of them. Why did i not bold Fiona and Vanessa Pang? Because i knew they were gonna go all along HAHAHA. BUT OMG NICOLE IS GOING IM SO HAPPY FOR HER(: Yayeeee. Nicole must jiayou ok(: make use of this chance to break your Pb and beat Annabelle!(:

Oh yes, and i forgot to say this during debrief. HEH. i actually forgot alot of things but oh well. Yes, thank you to all of you for not just supporting me, but believing in me even when i didn't believe in myself(: YOU GUYS WERE MY MOTIVATION TO DO WELL AND I <3 YOU (:
7:40 PM

Sunday, April 25, 2010

HuiJuen Fan Club (:
CLICK HERE AND LIKE OK OK OK (: I LOVE YOU ALL.
6:15 PM


FRIENDS never gets old no matter how many times i watch them over and over and over again. hahhaha. HEHEH I <3 FRIENDS. Omg Hisham just bought Season5 and 7 omg i am dying in jealousy. I WANT IT TOOOOO. one day im going to have the entire collection of FRIENDS in HD and HAAHHA I SHALL LOCK MYSELF IN THE ROOM AND WATCH THEM OVER AND OVER AGAIN ITS SO ENTERTAINING(:
"You have very great hair!"
"Thanks, i grow it myself." (L) (L) (L)
2:24 PM

Saturday, April 24, 2010

AH. wozzy wozzy brain kills me. I've been sitting here for the entire day hahaha wlao and i havent written anything. FAIL. Hai.
FTW.
6:23 PM


"In 1999, nearly 2,000 children did not attend school because their parents could not afford it. Mohammad Hirwan is one such child. His parents earn about US $600 a month, hardly sufficient for a family in Singapore. As a result the boy's parents had to take him out of school when he was nine. His siblings did not fare any better. All of them dropped out of school because of poverty"

Huh what is this O: i thought it was compulsory for everyone to receive education O: Poverty in Singapore? Huh O:
1:28 PM


BLAH. forget it. i give up researching on ASEAN because i dont even understand what im reading ))): ASEAN terms are so difficult i dont know what they're talking about at all. I just hired Irene as my assistant to help me intepret what the articles are saying. Ah, i need my points for my position paper): i feel so stupid. i cant even do something so simple ): the internet has too many things for me to refer to i dont know which to use ): Someone kill me ):
1:34 AM


Woah. my brain feels woozy. i dont think such a word exists but ah. okay so far, i have learnt quite alot of new things((:
Japan is ASEAN's largest trading partner, making up 12.4% of ASEAN's total trades. Over the years, trades (exports&imports) have increased.
hmm i am in a very serious crisis. I still dont understand what is Basket of Currencies, so are they currencies that other countries compare to or is it like a Local currency worldwide? HUH HUH HUH wo bu zhi dao ): the internet has so much information. All of which too cheem for me to understand.
12:13 AM

Friday, April 23, 2010

Since i know nothing about ASEAN, i think the first thing i should do is probably find out what it is first.
I anticipate more random blog posts in near future. HAHAHA
11:26 PM


YAYYEE> okay i am about to embark on my ASEAN research journey. GOODLUCK to me. AHHAHA. Wheeeeeeeeee.

Before that. I shall tell you what I did today. Nomnomnom(:
We only had like 4 lesson periods in school then we went for Table tennis match. MT, Maths Maths and English. I was so tired after reading i didnt really listen during english ): Hai. i have a feeling next week's TA's screwed but ah. i shall not worry about that now because i have other things to do. I think Chester didnt bring home the geog textbook. How to study for Development like that. HAI.
i dont like studying. its so. energy draining. Its not energy efficient at all. ):
Had Lunch/Dinner with IRENE JERVENNE and NIKKI((: CCK LotOne KFC. HAHAH. cos irene insisted on eating sheeken. I am still quite full actually.
Blaaaaaah. I wanted to sleep after i got home so i can stay up the night to research on ASEAN, oh but no, my annoying brother and cousins had to play in the room and nyeh i only managed to sleep like 45mins which i believe is not enough to last me the entire night): so what am i doing wasting time blogging her right. i dont know but i really am not looking forward to researching for Economy online. ): Blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.
11:13 PM

Thursday, April 22, 2010

YAY I AM BACK FROM DANCE NIGHT(:
HEHEHE, OUR DARLING IRENE (SHIN) NG AI TING IS AWESOME AWW AWW AWW.
HEHEHE. dance night is nice (: i am happy. for now. HEHEHHE.
I am so dead for ASEAN Plus Summit ): hai hai hai hai hai. i think i will just embarrass everyone but who cares right.
ANYWAY. DAPHNE LIYANA AND NITHYA WERE AWESOME TOOO. hahah aww.
Went to Jervenne's house after school. nomnomnom. I should come up with more strategies to make Jervenne bathe faster. HAHAHA. I was starving at her house omg why her house no food. thats like a first. HAHAH. we were late and we lost Zhu Kuan and Yenyin was angry cos we were late. HAHAH.
I am still hungry. Blaaaaaaah.
Never never starve a thrower ):
> BABY BABY BABY OHHHHHH
HAHAH. OH YEAH i sang for wee ming this morning aww aww aww (: I am so helpful i help everyone in their campaign HAHAHA.
10:46 PM

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Hello darling reader, if you're existent.
ANYWAY. im on my break from studying
NOMNAMNEMNOM. HEH. at least im studying today righ right right.
Polynomials and factor theorem and remainder theorem isnt that difficult actually. NOMNAMNEMNOM. I still dont get Kinematics. Blaaaaaaaah. WAIT TILL I REVISE IT. I WILL PWN YOU.
Training was nomnomnom today. supposed to do striding but then it started to rain so we ended up doing drills in the cage. Nomnomnom. Hai. i dont like today because i dont feel happy. I dont know why i dont feel happy i shall just make up reasons why i am not happy. I dont like Midyears cos they make me sad and i havent had midyears for 2 years and now suddenly i have mid years its quite scary. Blaah. I am sad ):
Studying makes me feel very tired.
Blaaah. anyway, Huijuen is nice(: She offered to teach my maths/physics after her exams. Nomnomnom. I shall not bother her and i shall study on my own.
I HAVE PLANS FOR AFTER EXAM. After mid years, i wanna go. yknow what actually i have no plans i just wanna go out. HAHAHA
Oh yes. i wont be having AM lessons will 7th may cos Mr Chan is away at reservist. Till then, i shall go swimming for fun on Sunday afternoons. I shall make myself a happy girl.
Goal of the week: I SHALL BE A HAPPY GIRL.
8:15 PM

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

Physics is only fun when i understand it. HAHAHAH.
Nicole is so nice she is teaching me kinematics (: WHEE. I feel so stupid compared to nicole like she knows so much more than me, but OH WELL. I shall learn from her since she's so smart (: HEHEHE. Huijuen's better at teaching but, since she's busy studying now, i shall just live with Nicole. HAHAH. YAYEEE.
hahahha nicole uses Huijuen as examples in kinematics thats so much more interesting than Mrs yeo using cars and skiiers and yah. AHHAH.
HuiJuen's Javelin flies at a velocity of 20m/s forward! HAHAH.
11:14 PM


Hairband works wonders and i think i dont look so much of a bowl when i wear one.
I like how my hair is short(:

6:50 PM


OKAY. i am going to be a good girl and plan my time properly and im going to have this time. time time. whatsthatthingcalled. OH YES time line for myself so i will study everything and not procrastinate and regret later. OKAY OKAY. VANEH WILL STUDY HARD MID YEARS MUST DO WELL IF NOT CANNOT GO TRAINING. Blaaaaaaaaah. I should start with.... Physics? Maybe. Maths? Maybe. Chem? BLAH I DONT KNOW.
Okay i need nerve management im starting to get frantic v easily now adays. I FEEL SO LOST AND UNMOTIVATED. someone slap me. BLAAAAAAAAAAAH.
BLAAAH BLAAAH BLAAAAAH.
Oh yes, i forgot to tell you just now i did 5 items today and it was ok, but i was v sad for IPUs cos i only did 25 and i wanted to do at least 30. ): I am getting old. either that or im getting too fat to be pulled up. HAHAHA. EH today jump not bad leh. 182cm. HAHAH thats like 20cm taller than i am. i shall consider that far. NOMNOM. HAI.
OKAY VANEH we shall start studying on the 21st April 2010
THAT SHALL BE THE DAY WE START MUGGING FOR MID YEARS MUAHA. All the way Vaneh Chung!!
6:07 PM


NOMNAMNEMNOM.
AHH. DHS ASEAN SCHOOLS PLUS SUMMIT OR HOWEVER THATS SPELT IS SCREWING ME UP. and we havent even started to do anything on it yet. NOMNAMNEMNOM. i dont know. maybe its because we're the only secondary school participating and eeeeeeeeeeee. im v scared what if i dont know what to do. what if im v lousy compared to all the others. AAH whats worse each one of us has a council of our own so we're all gonna be lonely souls all on our own. WEI SHEN ME. ): I'm in the economic council and ah, i know NOTHING, i repeat NOTHING about the economy. i know nothing about LOCAL economy much less talk about JAPAN's economy! oh god what have i gotten myself into this time ): haizxs.
MID YEARS COMING. i have no motivation to study.
Kinematics and Polynomials and Partial fraction and Remainder Theorem and Chemistry is crazy. I dont know what they're talking about, i dont know how to do my homework. I am so screwed ): Where is huijuen to teach me physics and maths )): blaah, she has more important things to study for than teach me anyway.
NOMNAMNEMNOM. I am so sianed that mid years are coming. i havent started studying and its only 4 weeks away according to mdm faridah. am i screwed or screwed.
5:57 PM

Monday, April 19, 2010

Nomnomnom. i think i get sad v easily hahahah. blaaaaaaaaaah.
Reasons why i am sad today.
1. i got scolded for my hair ):
actually i think that was all it took to make me sad for the day ): Apparently mdm tan thinks my hair is too attention seeking and i should look like a student since i am one. and i should not attract unwanted attention to myself so i should look normal. i think its mostly because my hair wasnt symmetrical and it made me look stupid and mr chan thinks its the ugliest hair cut ever and i should kill the hairstylist who cut it for me or whoever made me cut this hair. and i was like O_O the entire time he was saying this because he looked v worked up. <3s woanchin and gerry who stood up for me and said my hair cut was okay and i looked cute. but mr chan insisted that if it looked cute, they should cut it themselves and not make me cut my hair like that cos i look like a sha gua. according to him, i am a v guai student and i should look presentable. oh well. Mr tan asked me why my hair so short which implies that its not nice. hai. how i hate today ):
Nicole and Jervenne and Yenyin and i dont know who elsed that cut my hair, helped my fixed my in-symmetrical hair after training today(: i was so scared yknow cos i couldnt see anything and all i could hear is the scissors cutting cutting cutting and im like AAAH WHAT ARE YOU DOING TO MY HAIR. It turned out fine so thank god. hahaha.
Anyway, im gonna wear my hair band to school so that i will look normal.
Blaah. mid years are coming. im starting to hate school big time. ):
Wo miss sec4s ):
9:04 PM

Sunday, April 18, 2010

"The greatest mistake is to be afraid to make a mistake" yayee I like this quote it's like the "the greatest failure in life is the failure to try" quote(((: I like. I should really be sleeping now ah it's almost 3. Goodnight world!
2:45 AM

Saturday, April 17, 2010

I just came back from hougang. NOMNOM i just cut my hair and hahah i think i look funny now. MUSHROOM MUSHROOM MUSHROOM. all jervenne's idea. AHHA i was like JERVENNE! im going to cut hair today, what should i cut! she's like MUSHROOMMM. AHHAHHA. she should just cut mushroom with me and we can be yin yang mushrooms. AHHAHA
ANYWAY.
This is how i look in the morning before i went to cut my hair.



And this is how i am when i got back home. HAHA
5:25 PM


Remember when i was in kindergarten and i thought Westlife was the coolest band around. HAAHA. \o/!
Bop Bop Baby Please,
dont let me go.
Oh, Bop bop baby please,
just let me know.
1:06 PM

Friday, April 16, 2010

TODAY. is one of the days i feel v v v v mean. i should really try and be nice and stop bitching about people. Ah. Anyway. i should try and be nice and just shut up and put up sometimes. Okay. I should start trying. ANYWAY.
EYD today. NOMNOM BLUE BLUE BLUE. with pink cap is just weird. ANYWAY. EYD was quite okay. not as fun as previous years, but yeah. Bio presentation was prettty screwed. Huh huh huh. i thought my script wasnt so bad but i forgot to consider the fact that the others wont get it so quickly. Nom. Maths is so sian like eee. cos i got alot of wrong. i do not like to see crosses on my answer scripts. ANYWAY. OMG JINJIAN GOT FULL MAKRS SO ZAI LOR. she's gonna get Universal studio tickets from miss tay. WOW WOW WOW. Jiaying so sad got 14.5/15. COS SHE PRESS CALCULATOR WRONGLY ): i am sad for her. she's gonna get something from miss tay too so it isnt so bad. it scares me how my classmates are so smart. SCARY):
Physics slack like dont know what was singing random chinesepop songs with florence jiaying and rachel at the back of the lab.
LUNCHED with nikki, julia, fiona and nicole! (: Pizza hut at plaza sing. I ATTEMPTED TO FINISH 3 CUPS OF PEPSI AT ONCE. not ONE SHOT. just finish them together. HAHA. so fun. i should master that and then try one shot(: I LIKE. and i am not chor lor lor. i so dainty!
Lit up was COOLZXS(: YENYIN WAS SO NORMAL HAHA DONT NEED TO ACT JUST BE HERSELF CAN ALREADY(: HEHEH. Zhixuan was the LION! I LIKE SO ORANGEY. she act innocent somemoer. AHHAHA. but zhixuan was so cute i like her tail. (: no other lion can beat my lion!!
sent nicole home and julia and alethea to the bus stop. YAYEE.

Oh god. so not looking forward to studying tomorrow.
10:55 PM

Thursday, April 15, 2010

AAAH. i am tired.
I think im going to do badly for remainder theorom. Oh god. why did they have to have 2 periods of maths on the day i wasnt around ): HAIZXS.
Chem test wasnt so bad. I KNOW HOW TO DO EH> (:
EYD tmrr! and lit up
HEHE. i just realised. the only thing in my things to look forward to list is MASTERY OF SHOT PUT. after tmr. cos by tmr, lit up wouldve ended. Aah.
this feels like one of my. i feel like emo shit day. because homework is suffocating me and mid years is coming. Oh so many things i dont understand ):
wo hen lei.
9:57 PM

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

Oh the internet has such unglam photos of mine. WHY OH WHY.
Livia found this photo of me on flickr but. WLAO SO UGLY ONE ):
Oh wellzxs.
I AM HUNGRY EVEN THOUGH I'VE JUST EATEN DINNER AND ONE MANGO WEI SHEN ME. WHY AM I ALWAYS SO HUGREEEEEEEEEEY. *ANGRY ANGRY ANGRY*
10:06 PM


ITS FINALS TMRRR(:
omg so fast another season over O: wow.
ANYWAY. JIAYOU TO NICOLE HENG LIN LI, LEE YEN YIN AND CHAN ZHI XUAN!! WO SUPPORT YOU OKAY (: Nomnomnom. THROWER POWER(:

I RAN 2.4 TODAY! WOW WOW WOW BE SURPRISED I DIDNT STOP(: hehehhee. i may not be able to run fast, BUT AT LEAST I DONT STOP OKAY(: are you proud of me? EVEN JERVENNE SAY NOT BAD EH. she always say i cannot run. JIN TIAN she say NOT BAD. so it must be really NOTBAD(: i ran with aishwarya and she run run run and in the end just chiong off without me. HAHA. i was like, OKAY BE THAT WAY LAH. hahahha. no lah. she v nice anyway. i bet she couldve ran faster if she didnt run with me BUT OH WELLZXS. i officially prefer 5items to 2.4km. :D Nikki said my sweaty hug gave her luck for her 5items HAHAH. AWWWW. (:
Cant wait for victory dinner tomorrow.
AH I HAVENT PREPARE ANYTHING FOR EXPRESS YOURSELF DAY EEYER. JAIME BOND<3
9:55 PM

Monday, April 12, 2010

I am going to learn how to keep quiet.
YES I AM SERIOUS I WILL REALLY TRY!!! tomorrow will be a trial :D also because its finals on wednesday and im going to save my voice for wednesday!!!
Because i realised i am very annoying and its v disrespectful if i keep talking talking talking. i should learn to shut up and listen. YES OKAY. im going to try(:
9:20 PM


I AM ANGRY. actually. not really. HEH.
i dont know whether to conclude today as a good day or not. HMM. ANYWAY. i scare myself when i sit infront of dark reflective surfaces cos i will see this huge pair of white spectacles floating and for this second i will forget that its actually myself and freak out. ITS REALLY SCARY ITS LIKE A PAIR OF FLOATING EYES STALKING YOU. okay. HMM. SO. i cant wait for final day. HAH. it'd be so exciting i'd be screaming and shouting and who cares if my voice is going going gone already. BAAH. shall drink water ttm for the next few days. HYDRATE FOR WEDNESDAY HAH.
SO. i didnt go for training today because i was on a mission to get ribbons. AND MY JUNIORS MISSED ME AWW AWW AWW. Julia said she was like waiting for me to arrive during stretching(: AND FIONA AND JULIA WISHED I WAS THERE TO TEACH THEM WHEN THEY WERE THROWING JAVELIN AWWWWWWW. so sweet right like they actually miss me considering they didnt even notice my presence when i was sec2. HEHEH. and natalie hurt her finger and they were like WHERE'S VANEH WHEN WE NEED HER. HAHAH AWWWW. they actually notice im missing, hhaha. i guess today was quite a good day. HEHHE.
Oh remainder theorome cracks me up big time and im having GREAT difficulties understanding it. but yeah, i have to get it by hook or by crook cos Midyears are coming and im already half screwed(: LIFE SUCKS. so go be a thrower.
i dont know where that came from. HAHA. WHEE.
7:52 PM

Sunday, April 11, 2010

Sensation, which you use to perceive reality
iNtuition, which you use to perceive possibilities
Thinking, which you use to decide logically
Feeling, which you use to decide using values


extraverted iNtuition(Ne) 23 introverted Sensation (Si) 12
introverted iNtuition(Ni) 21 extraverted Sensation (Se) 14
extraverted Feeling (Fe) 24 introverted Thinking (Ti) 11
introverted Feeling (Fi) 21 extraverted Thinking (Te) 14

I am an ENFJ
1:38 PM


MY MOUTH IS FILLED WITH HOLES. (Nicole's term for ulcers) BAAH):
i realised suddenly everything came after nationals. My throat hurts and the ulcers are all appearing. i think i might be dying soon. hahahha.
I've decided i want to be a happy yellow bouncing ball. so all i do everyday is boing boing boing around happily in yellow (: but i dont want to be made from rubber! ): i want to be made from something eco friendly. HEHEHE :D
AND i learnt that we should never never let balloons fly into the sky even though its really very pretty and fun to do so. because it will eventually POP! and then it will fall and it'd probably land into the Seas because 3/4 of the earth is made of water ): then the poor sea creatures will eat it and they will die!!! then they will go extinct then everyone will blame everyone. SO DONT DO THAT. Pretty balloons are meant to stay in sight so we can enjoy looking at their prettiness(:
12:40 PM


Its 2.47am in the morning. WHAT AM I DOING HERE. i dont know really hahahha.
I CALLED FIONA AT LIKE 1.50 AM for reasons you dont have to know. HAHAHA. my lovely junior totally threw my face away by claiming i was the one screaming and laughing in the phone. thankyou fiona, how i love you:D
My dream was a sign! I KNEW IT WAS(: i feel like boinging all around the house in joy now. HEHE. LIKE BOING BOING BOING. maybe i should go and BOING and wake my brother up(: WHAT DO YOU THINK! but im quite tired already actually. BAAH. i slept from 7pm to 10pm when i was suppose to wake up earlier to study Mole concepts 2. BUT YKNOW being vaneh i just slept through the entire night and i dreamt of lunch and i dreamt that i receive this sms from mr ng but i woke up before i could read it and i really received and sms from him! HAHA. my dreams are awesome right. i should start studying i have v bad time management, HAHA. i just spend my time procrastinating and sleeping all the time and in the end i just sit there in my regretness and regret not doing work and continue to procrastinate. mid years are coming i am so screwed.
And i just realised the sec4s wont be training with us anymore and its going to be very sad )): i think training will be alot quieter without the sec4s and less crazy and less food consumption as well. ZHIXUANNNN. nomnom. i'd feel v lost without seniors. i cant imagine im a senior. oh god.

Things to look forward to:
Lit Up
Victory Dinner.
MASTERY OF THE SHOT PUT HAHAHA.
2:47 AM

Saturday, April 10, 2010

My lovely juniors broke my heart when they said "I DIDNT EVEN KNOW YOU EXISTED WHEN I WAS IN SEC 1! VANESSA? WHO'S VANESSA!"
and they were like, "YAH, NICOLE AND YENYIN SO COOL YKNOW. THEY THROW DISCUS SO NICE.. BLAH BLAH..
"JERVENNE'S LEGS SO SKINNY AND NICE! SHE SO PRETTY!!"
WLAO. and even after they knew of my existence, they refer me to as the weird and noisy and definitely NOT the cool one. HAVE I TOLD YOU HOW MUCH I LOVE MY JUNIORS! TSKKKK. next year im going to act Dao so they will think i am cool! and maybe then someone will ou me. oh you never know right. I WILL NEVER NOT BE KNOWN ANYMORE.
at least nikki remembered i was the first to say hi to her. hence you can infer that i am v friendly and nice and worth noticing. NOMNOM!!
6:12 PM


EE omg remainder theorom bores me. EEE> maybe i should stop doing it infront of the computer ;) ;) ;)
My retainers hurt my teeth. NOMNOM!
Lunch with Nicole, YenYin, Mr Ng- No wait, Coach, Huijuen and Hannah!!! :D:D
hehe. eat until v v v v v v full. But the coke was awesomezxs (: i like!! 3cans of coke. I love 1 shot-ing with coke. its so exciting and fun.
AND HANNAH AND NICOLE SAYS THERE ARE BIRDS HIDDEN AROUND MY HOUSE HUH OMG. MAYBE THATS WHY SOMETIMES WHEN IM DOING HOMEWORK I HEAR THE CHIRP CHIRP CHIRP ALL OVER. HUH HUH HUH WEI SHEN ME! i should get a bird exterminator seriously. EE. birds are v ugly and mean and evil creatures. they steal your food and they peck you after stealing your food and they pretend to be minding their own business all the time but they are actually spying on you. PLEASE DO NOT TRUST THEM. they are big fat ugly liars ): one day they're going to take over the world and we're all gonna become their slaves. PLEASE BE CAREFUL!!!!
5:20 PM


Wheeee. GO CEDARRRRR. WE'RE CURRENTLY LEADING IN BOTH C AND B DIVISION BY A FEW POINTS. JIAYOU AND PUSH HARDER, IM SURE WE'LL BE ABLE TO GET DOUBLE CHAMPIONZXS. JIAYOU CEDAAAAAAAAAAAAR. WE LOVE YOU! YOU CAN ONEZXS(:

CHANZHIXUAN!!
ALL THR WAY FOR DISCUS OKAY JUST DO YOUR THING AND GO OWN EVERYONE UPSIDE DOWN((((: WE LOVE YOU DEAR CAPTAIN!

NICOLEHENGLINLI.
YOU. LOOK HERE!! Don't give up okay!! You can one! You must believe in yourself. You've hit 28m and even more!!!! SO YOU MUST BELIEVE YOU CAN THEN YOU'LL BE ABLE TO DO IT! Must jiayou okay!! We all believe in you, so you must believe in yourself also. (: Dont be like me. HAHAHA ALL THE WAY Top5 OKAY. :D:D

LEEYENYIN.
YOU ZHE ZHI ZHU WHAT CANNOT TOP8 YOU WANT ME TO SLAP YOU!!? Must be thickskin and say AIYAH TOP8 SO EASY CAN CAN. (: Must think that you are v pro!! YKNOW even mr ng told me if you click you can throw 27m!! SEEE YENYIN, even MR NG SAYS YOU CAN! I didnt make this up okay he really said this. So you must have faith in yourself. YOU CAN DO IT!(: I will be screaming my lungs off for you nicole and zhixuan next wednesday. NOMNOM(: dont be like meee! JIAYOU YAHZXS(:
7:56 AM

Thursday, April 8, 2010

I did not choose flight over fight. Stop thinking i ran away. I did not.
I was trying very hard to fight away all the negative thoughts. I tried. please believe me ):
today just went down as the worse day of my life in my entire life.
I will not give up. I will fight. I will work hard for next year. Watch me come back stronger, better, faster.
8:58 PM

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

Im wide awake 5 am in the morning because mr ng says that we need to practice waking up at 5. HAH and today was a successful one(:
I almost made it yesterday but i fell asleep at 5.26 while waiting for 5.30 to come so i can and shower. OH WELLZXS.
I LOVE YESTERDAY(: im vvvvv touched by everyone hehehe. wlao i tell you ah, almost every card i get got Huijuen inside. HAHA like her name and her face and her photo omg hahahha. so funny. HEHE I LOVE YOU ALLLL(:
Training was not so bad(: i got this really nice throw. YAY. I BELIEVE ITS COMING BACK AND IM GONNA GET IT AGAIN TODAY IF I GET TO THROW AND IM GONNA GET IT AGAIN ON THURSDAAY(((: HEHEH WATCH MEY JAVELIN FLY ON THURSDAY. WATCH HOW IT'D FLY ME INTO TOP 5. YOU WATCH OUT!! HAHAHA.
HUIJUEN GAVE ME A CARDDDD :D A TINY TINY PRETTY CARD AND SHE SAID "BELIEVE IN YOURSELF! YOU CAN DO IT!" HEHEH YAAAAAAAAAY. YES I CAN!! :D
and i told mr ng i made 3 wishes today.
1: To be like Huijuen when i grow up
2: To be more confident and throw far far!
3: To get into top5 and qualify for WALA(this was a silent wish so i didnt tell anyone NOMNOMNOM)

Mr ng said 1 is possible and 2 is coming true! YAAAAY:D IM V HAPPY YAY I CAN SO DO THIS ON THURS
5:44 AM

Sunday, April 4, 2010

I feel like a pig on every sunday. Cos i eat and i sleep then i eat and i sleep again. All i did today was eat and sleep. bleeeh. when i feel scared, i eat. when i feel insecure, i eat.
Tomorrow's last training till thursday omg i am scared like shit. i really hope i'll get to throw tmr and i hope when i throw mr ng will be there. aiyoh, i dknow ah. tmr please be good):
6:59 PM

Saturday, April 3, 2010

Training was quite okay today. throws were like shit most of the time. VANEH. "not enough legs and body, come on, i need you to be more daring and use your big muscle. Long pull, quick whip, GET IT UP!" i can memorise everything that mr ng tells us to do. but i can never put them all together and make it into a v nice throw ): "Where is the shoulder rotation! you watch Huijuen, you tell me fast or not" AH.
at least ball drills were quite good. Huijuen said i got my big step correct and she even said some of my throws were good. I hope i can do that to my Javelin too. I'm really looking forward to nationals, but im still scared shitless. I hope i wont let myself down. Actually. all i have is ONE more full training till my event. im scared. ): Everyone thinks i am ready. I dont feel like i am. I mean, training wise, i've done my part and i know there's no reason why i cant right. But mentally, i think im screwed upside down. Anyway i've got nothing left for me to do, nationals is just 4days away. Ah. No one can help me if i keep thinking like that. come on vaneh, be POSITIVE. Mr ng says its coming back, even if you dont trust yourself, trust mr ng.
11:40 PM

Friday, April 2, 2010

I was actually looking forward to training very much today. Like i was very happy in the bus and everything. Like, "YAY, today's a good day. I'm going to throw well. I CAN TOTALLY DO THIS." I was v happy v happy until.
Mr tan came across from the other side of the field and went
"Okay we're going to do this competition style. 3 throws. You 9m, you 9m, you 8.5, you 28m... You dont reach these goals, run 10 rounds"
I went first and i thought it was going to be okay. I went in going like "VANEH YOU CAN DO THIS" in my head, even though my face was like "WTF I CANT DO THIS". Then mr tan and chloe had to come over and start yaking on everything. They said things like,
"eh, last year she got 3rd leh."
"Yah, suppose to be first one leh, then lose to the girl. This time sure lose again lah"
"she suppose to throw 28m leh!"
"So what! sure cannot one..."
I WAS SO ANGRY I WAS BOILING INSIDE LIKE, "YOU SAY WHAT? WHO CANNOT THROW? I SHOW YOU LAH WLAO"
1st and 3rd throw were like off cos they were so annoying. Pysched up myself during the second throw, it was better, 26m? according to Lenis. I really hope it was at least that. I never felt so angry for a very long time. Meanies.
Didnt do gym. Im surprised.
I've decided. tomorrow's training will be good. because i want it to be good. Oh and im going to start waking up at 5am, so it'd be easier for my body to warm up by the time training starts.
WATCH AND LEARN
7:26 PM

Thursday, April 1, 2010

Training yesterday started with briefing and i'll admit. I am freaking out. Yes i am freaking out. but im trying very hard to tell myself that i CAN. that i will do it. I will not have any regrets. no i will not. mr ng was very nice and supportive even though i was really un-confident despite his encouragements and stuffs. he even specially signed "HJ" on the food wrap to make me feel better. I am very touched by all the support from my teammates. I <3 all of them because they always try to make us feel better. i am scared, but im going to rationalise my fear, im going to over come it. You will sit and watch me fly. and thats all you can do. because i believe i can. mr ng believes in me. the team believes in me. they need me to be strong, they need me to be confident. i need myself to be more than i can be.
if i were blue, would you be there for me and whisper in my ear "thats okay"?
6:30 PM


HEY MY DEAR JAVELIN JUNIORS I AM VERY PROUD OF ALL OF YOU(:
Goodjob to Vp for getting 1st, Shiying for getting 5th and Claudia for getting 8th. GOODJOB I AM VERY PROUD OF ALL OF YOU(:
What matters most is that you've done your best and had fun. I <3 all of you no matter whaaaaat.
GOODJOB TO ALL CEDAR TRACK&FIELDERS. JIAYOU FOR THE UPCOMING EVENTS <3!!
6:13 PM
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