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Its not how good you are,
its how good you want to be.

I can't take it
Tuesday, September 29, 2009

Roarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrzxs .
EL EYE ON THURSDAY D: D: D: D: D:
scared .
无声胜有声
8:02 PM

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

roar roar roar .
i need to stop getting distracted by scotch tapes and coloured papers and scissors and all the weird things around the table when i study . gaahzxs . i feel like im screwing up . psst .
attempted to study geog today . ended up falling asleep on the floor hugging onto my school bag . shitzxs . roar roar roar . chester was suppose to wake me :( :( :(
OH OH OH . had maths mock exam today . HAHA . i think i damn smart . i forgot to bring calculator . lolllll .
thank you NISA :D:D
saved my life . heheheh .
ohh , and im very sad today :(
i fell asleep on the bus and then i missed my stop . then i panicked . then my happy meal toy's wings fell off and rolled somewhere in the bus and then i dknow where it went then i kan chiong to get off the bus , i couldnt find it and now my toy's wingless . :( :( :(
hurr , i . am . sad .

"They told me i was crazy . i dreamt the sky [radiated] blue but the doctors had cleared me said it was a case of too much missing you." Quoted from : Rayson's blog
8:53 PM

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Tragic show . hmmzxs .
9:57 PM

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

yaay . was late for training , had extra lessons . hmmzxs . actually wanted to pon , since it was already so late . but im really happy i didnt miss training :) :) :) !
only did abs uh . then played ball ! :D:D:D:D:D
hurrr , then then . Yenyin said . maybe mr seem might be leaving ! :( i was like : HURRR D: ! but zx said most probably he wont be . but i'm still sad :( . if mr seem goes , i'd cry . :( :( :(
i'm very grateful to everything mr seem had taught me . not only throwing but in many many other things as well . although sometimes he scolds me , i know he only does that when i deserve it . i have learnt many things from him . i have learnt to believe in myself and know what to do at the right time . he made me realise that i can be so much more than i thought i can be . i never knew i could push myself so far , i never knew i could wanted something so much , i never knew i could achieve so much . all that i am now , he played a huge part in it and im grateful to him and will always be .
Thank you , Mr seem , Throwers LOVE you ! :)
9:16 PM

Monday, September 14, 2009

sian ttm ttm ttm .
i forgot what i wanna talk about already :(
ah . i watched taken . scary D: but i think . the dad was pretty cool . i think he can be hitman :D:D like really . he resembled the guy i often see in the tv screen when chester/milton plays hitman . he's cool :D and i like him .
but alot of people die uh . and . i dreamt that i died in my dreams . got shot . haha . aah . aftermath of watching too much .
9:50 PM

Friday, September 11, 2009

she died she died she died :( :( :(
wah . i damn sad sia , when she die . and i hated that the evil woman had to come in and spoil the whole dying scene . :( why did she have to come and say all these shitzxs to annoy :(((( . like , wah . she's so evil laaaa . so rich still pretend to be poor and . oh godzxs .
and why did the fiance had to be so shamelesssss :((( gaah . this stupid show annoys me .

but then . at the same time . im getting sick of all these drama . god . if only they can see that the people are freaking evilllll and meannn and evillllll . just like how the woman could :( .
oh and i was revising science - light just now right . and then . i realised . the people who just couldnt see through the evil people's acts . its like . umm . the only see what they want to see . like , they dont try to go and really find out and everything . its like the refraction rule ! like how when something's in another medium, , our eyes dont see where it exactly is rather we only see a virtual image . half a distance away from the real object . something's that not real .

hmmzxs . maybe you dont get what im blabbering about . i should stop already . hmmzxs .
10:40 PM

Thursday, September 10, 2009

aaah . the tv show is killing me . seriously .
haiz . i think its so sad . that the evil people get their way and the good people either die or gets led the wrong way by the bad people . :( :( :(
haiz , i really like the mother yknow . like , i think she's really great and everything . i love the way she knows what to do and how she deal with problems and how sacrificial she is . she made the whole show so sad and aah , i was crying cos she was going to die . :( i dont understand why all the good people in the world had to die . :(
and im sad that the others who are actually good believe the evil people :( if only they thought the way the mother thought . if only they understand :( i hate the way the evil people make use of the trust people have for them and do their evil deeds . it makes me sad . i hate the way they're so hypocritical . it just makes me want to kill them more . gaah . haiz . sad show .
i wish she didnt have to die :(
11:48 PM

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

VANEH DID BETTER DURING TRAINING TODAY :D
and jervenne made me realise i was pretty stupid for being overly honest in my log book . haha .
I <3 today
12:43 AM



“I wanted a perfect ending. Now I've learned, the hard way, that some poems don't rhyme, and some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle, and end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what's going to happen next. Delicious Ambiguity.” - Gilda Radner:


“How is one to live a moral and compassionate existence when one is fully aware of the blood, the horror inherent in life, when one finds darkness not only in one's culture but within oneself? If there is a stage at which an individual life becomes truly adult, it must be when one grasps the irony in its unfolding and accepts responsibility for a life lived in the midst of such paradox. One must live in the middle of contradiction, because if all contradiction were eliminated at once life would collapse. There are simply no answers to some of the great pressing questions. You continue to live them out, making your life a worthy expression of leaning into the light.” - Barry Lopez
12:16 AM

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

Lollllll . i am boreddddddddddddd .
TODAY TRAINING SO FUN :D:D:D:D
all we did was medicine ball . haha , so awesome . partnered jervenne , wah can die sia do with her . ahhahha . we happy happy finished first set then realised need to do second set . ahhah . died . do with her cannot stop laughing . hahahah . my arms fell off i tell you , i swear . ahah . wah then second set . worse . hahah . i cannot do properly eeey . *pain pain*
hehehhe . so fun . i love going to trainings ! :D throwers all very funny . ahha
MR SEEM ALSO . HAHA
like this morning , he came in and told us about this news . (apparently im very current affairs deprived) HAHA
Got students jump off building again ! And according to Lenis , they think that World War 3's gonna start and they have to jump off the building together and be resurrected to become slayers to save the earth . ahha , okay , i know its mean to laugh , but i cant help it . im like , WHY THEY SO SILLYYYYY . HAHAHA .
then someone told me sam's going to go to HongKong then im like , ASK HER BUY DIMSUM BACK FROM HONGKONGGGG . HEHEHHE . haha . mr seem thought i went crazy . haha .
10:59 PM

Saturday, September 5, 2009

Sometimes , i just think that . you think too much . Lollllll .
You're just expecting too much from yourself and others around you . Its not that we dont care or bother .
there's nothing wrong with crying to feel better , infront of whoever . and i dont think people think you're strong at all , mentally , emotionally , whichever . whatever you do , im sure they can feel/tell that you're putting on an act , if they know you well enough . well , most of them . you're the one that thinks that we think you are who you are , but we know you are not . just stop putting on a tough front and be yourself . people will accept who you are , dont take things so hard on yourself . you're only making life more difficult . why make it so difficult when you can make it easy ?
anyways , take care and luck .
6:07 PM


WHOOOOOOOOOO . break break break .
im super woper happyyyyyyyyy . it seems like its been forever since i had a holiday . hehehehehe .
EYEs' are right after sept holidays , so need to muggg ): sad ttm .
i need to study 987654321x harder for geog , lit and chinese , 87654321x for science and english , 7654321x for history and 654321x and maths . tskkkkk . i think i'll go crazy at the end of holidays . haha .
Holiday Plan :
Monday : Study
Tuesday : Training
Wednesday : Study
Thursday : Training
Friday : Training
Saturday : Tuition
Sunday : SLEEP :D

hahaha , zomg i have no life .

OHOHOH . and i dont think im going for COALs camp already . not really interested and yea , since most of the days for BTC and the camp itself clashes with training , i dont think i'll go . Cant wait till exams are over .
Jiayou Vaneh :)
5:59 PM


I’ve been everywhere around the world and finally here tonight
You seem to be the only one to make me feel alright

I feel good when I know you’re coming down
I feel good when I know you’ll be around

So quit your life and stay with me
We’ll order in and watch TV
We’ll paint the house and wash the car
We’ll take a walk but not too far
So quit your life and stay with me

New York to Los Angeles and all it takes in between
After miles and hours on the road, you’re the best I’ve seen

I feel good, you’re the best friend that I’ve found
I feel good when I’m coming back to your town

So quit your life and stay with me
We’ll order in and watch TV
We’ll paint the house and wash the car
We’ll take a walk but not too far
So quit your life and stay with me

I heard the road, it was calling my name
I walked towards the light and I ran towards the flame
I ran towards the flame

After all is said and done, I don’t mind saying again
I say it’s true that I’m in love with the places that I’ve been

I feel good when I know you’re coming down
I feel good when I know you’ll be around

So quit your life and stay with me
We’ll order in and watch TV
We’ll paint the house and wash the car
We’ll take a walk but not too far
So quit your life and stay with me

So quit your life and stay with me
Stay with me
5:45 PM

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

Today, I lie down deep in slumber.
Feelings are falling downward.
I want to forget.
Waking up, I hear the way your voice sounds.
My heart starts to pound, now...
To the rhythm of yours.
You're so angelic. Your words so symphonic.
Attach your lips to my soul, eat this sorrow away.
How am I so lucky, I found you?

Sometimes, I feel like I'm still dreaming.
It seems like everyday, you're always on my mind.
This is how we stay so connected over space and time.

When we talk about all my old drama,
You look at me and wonder how I'm not insane.
Every week the days seem to get longer.
But you know our love gets stronger with every word we say.
Stronger every day.
You know I would do anything for you.

Sometimes, I feel like I'm still dreaming.
It seems like everyday, you're always on my mind.
This is how we stay so connected over space and time.

If you are feeling down, you know I feel it, now.
We give each other strength to make it through the darkness.
You take me to a place I never want to leave.
I'm in my deepest dream, I don't ever want to wake up.
I'll fight till I die, I won't say goodbye, and I won't let this pass me by.

Sometimes, I feel like I'm still dreaming.
It seems like everyday, you're always on my mind.
This is how we stay so connected over space and time.

Let's run away,
Let's go away to some place safe.
I want it all, I want everything.

Silverstein
10:13 PM


Dental Appt tmr ! HAHA . i think Dr Lim's gonna be freaked by my white rubber band turning yellow . HAHAHHAHA . ITS GROSS I TELL YOU . but i care uh . heeeeeeee . im only attending half day of school la . hmm . i wonder what colour i should put for my braces tmr . hmmmzxszxs .
i just blogged about rayson ! haha , fun ey . OH AND DID YOU SEE THE BEAR HE MADE . WAAH , I WANT SIAA . so nice . haha . I WANT THAT HANDMADE BEAR, YOU . WITH THE JAVELIN :DDDDDDD HEHHEEE . so cute la . WO YAO .
oh , its 15th tmr ! as in , in the Lunar Calendar . FULL MOON :) :) :) ! awesomezxs right . i know . i love full moons . heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee .
10:00 PM


woah , the channel 8 show so sad ):
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