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Thursday, July 31, 2008
Okay Z: im back . i have my specs replaced cos the broken one was well, in-repairable . ): i miss it . i have new specs now . and i had some eye check up to put on contact lens and it feels weird . i mean, the fact that im not wearing specs. im wearing some trail lens . ohh, i dont know . mummy's blaming me for being an ingrate right now . she said that im so in grateful and un appreciative . cos i so careless , broke my specs and well, had to make new ones and she had to pay for it and she's blaming me for everything . rahrahrah . i neeed to do an essay today but im not in the mood at all . ): how . believe me when i say its hard 5:41 PM
MOO . holy cow . my specs are loopsided now O: . i was wiping it wiping it with my towel just now and WAMP it kinda broke off . O: . and now im looking side way now . HAHA . slap yourself Vanessa D: . okay . im going out to make some new one . or maybe lens i dont know . blog tonight . bye . (: 3:30 PM
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
slap yourself Vanessa . you really should . rah . im tired . im tired . im tired . i feel so anti-social today . very . i feel so stupid . so useless . i dont know what the hell is the problem withme . no matter how much , how hard i study, its always this kinda results i get . and i dont know why is it that the questions that came out are what i missed out when i was studying . Vanessa. you're stupid . admit it and slap yourself again . shut up Vanessa . im sick and tired of slapping myself all the time . and you people out there, stop telling me its okay , its okay . because it is not . it definitely is not. i appreciate you being so nice trying to make me feel better, but it is NOT okay . cos it is NOT good enough . and its my fault . April, im sorry . sorriest sorry . rah . history was a nightmare . so was science. i cant believe i left out copper in my periodic table and i din memorise . shet . its not nice . and i hate myself for leaving it out . cells . shet . cells . i hate myself for being so lazy . soso lazy . slap yourself again VC . my hards are sore from writing now . rah . i just wanna crawl into my bed ; and throw away the life i led 2:58 PM
Monday, July 28, 2008
i just drank the world's most HORRIBLE drink ever . some stupidwupidtupid herbal drink. im never gonna go near it ever again . NEVER . and NEVEREVER force me to drink some stupid herbal drink . i'll never go near anything herbal forever . NEVER . because of this stupid herbal drink, my mouth stinks even though i brushed it a dozen times and it still stinks and im never gonna open my mouth ever again . STUPID PEOPLE , STUPID HERBAL THING . you ruined my day . night , in this case . BUT I DONT CARE . ITS RUINED . RAHHH . stuupid . 28July today was fine . swimming was fun O: . we threw some ropes and boards . ohh , me and jervenne were retarded . totally . O: i dont know . today's test was so-so . i wont say im confident cos i am not and if i say i am, it will always turn out exactly opposite of the way i thought it would turn out to be . this doesnt make sense but I DONT CARE . music . rah . boring . science was a free period . and i think i wasted it . geez . i dont think i memerised anything at all . After school i dont know if anyone was presenting today for IPW . the board says that 2 groups are presenting . but jervenne said that woanchin said that nobody's gonna present today . D: so i left . i dont know . if they really presented, im sorry i left ): . it musta been sad that noone bothered to stay back to see you people present . im sorry . im super tired today . but i cant sleep . i got so many things i need to do, im sleep deprived. i cant wait for this week to pass . O: after friday, common tests will offically be HISTORY and i'll be hanging out at fort canning park for like, the whole of saturday . lol . sleep deprived . rahh . im sleeeeppppy . jah . and Gerry, im not nice okay . (: im not . so there's no need to be guilty at all okay ? iloveyou (: 10:32 PM
Sunday, July 27, 2008
): i feel so useless today O: . i cant finish my 30 laps . im sorry ): . teacher must have been very very disappointed . im sorry ): . although all he said was dont worry, you can do it . ohh , i feel that i've let him down . and i feel so bad . i need to push myself harder . i cant fail gold* . i cant let teacher down D:. dont worry i can do it . at least, i'll try O: . its not over . 10:03 PM
Friday, July 25, 2008
O: . i cant remember what happened today . all i can remember about today is the PTM . Mrs gay freaked me out . i dont know how to reply to her O: . oh and for some shhet reason , my arm is hurting like idontknowwhat . gah . and im sleepy . IWANTSOMESLEEP . i cant believe Mrs gay said im kind . O: i was uber surprised. i felt so stupid when dad was talking to Mrs Choo . O: i mean . i dont know lar . i cried for some idontknowwhat reason and Mrs Choo asked why i always cried . O: ohh . it was uber stupid . for my case . shhhheeeeeeeeeeeeet . 11:07 PM
Thursday, July 24, 2008
today din start out good . D: maths test was a disaster . disaster not as in i didnt know how to do but i did it on some stupid foolscap instead of the question paper itself . i felt so stupid when i realised i should have done it on the question paper. i hate my stupidity. i hate it. i started to panic . shhhheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeettttt . there's only 10mins left . htf am i going to copy all my workings into that darn question paper ? its almost impossible O: . i tried and it was impossible afterall . you know what, i managed to copy down TWO pathetic questions . yes . just TWO . it sucks . and started hating myself for EVERYTHING . decided to staple my answer sheet onto that question paper. what to do ?! i felt so dead at that moment . i had this stupid feeling that im going to fail even though i did all the questions and i had this feeling im gonna fail because they will ignore my answers and give me zero for everything i have not done on the question paper . i panicked , i started crying . gah . well, i din start crying immediately . i cried when the teacher left . i just cant bear all my marks to fly away when i've studied so hard this time for maths . i cant . rahrahrah . nat accompanied me to the toilet to wash up my face and tidy my hair etc . passed by Mrs Choo's class and asked her about the exam thing . O: . i dont know . she say she'll mark it . i dont know . im still scared. i realised she realised i cried . D: ran back to class . i'd feel so bad if i really failed this time. i dont want to fail . im determined not to fail . so i AM NOT GOING TO FAIL. but it doesnt seem like how it is this time . after school's self training was fun :D . fun . fun . fun . we played captain's ball :D ! and we had this new buddy system and some bonding rules . O: cassandra's my buddy ! D: ! i fell down again today O: . another one of my stupid falls . i stumbled upon MYSELF .. yes MYSELF . wow . i was walking walking then i fell . O: . im so sorry knee and elbow . i din mean to fall . i hope you are feeling better already (: . anyway , i feel so bad when i fell . not the pain but that everyone had to stop playing for awhile . O: . but yea , i went to the office to clean my wound and stuff . then we played captains ball and um . oh BALL . it was suppose to be volley ball but we kinda mixed everything in . i dont know what it was like . we kicked , pushed , threw . i dont know O: . overall, today was awesome (: . owing to throwers , nat and xinting (: cheerios . 9:37 PM
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
O: . yesterday sucked . it sucked a whole lot . ): i think im gonna fail lit now . really think that im gonna fail already . i think of everything i wrote in my essay, none of them made any sense at all . i think my points are the same and i was just repeating it only thing is that i phrased it in anyway . but i didnt really had the time to change it anymore . so i guess im gonna fail . fail badly . and my plan sucked a whole lot . i rushed through it last min . O: din mean to but my original plan was rubbish . sssssssssssssssssshhhhhhhhhhhheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeett . oral after school wasnt any better . No . i think the teacher failed me badly . my picture and conv. sucked . sucked . and i mean it . it sucked . i was like repeating everything i said . and yes . ALOT OF SLANGS . ssssssssshhhhhhhhuuuuuuuuuuuts . im fed up . O: . there's maths tomorrow . i dont know what to do know . im afraid that it'd turn out like lit . i thought i was prepared . i wasnt at all . D: . i failed EL TA again . Yay ? i dont know . hoho . 12/25 . O: it was so rubbish . i listed out as many points as i could find but i still failed . O: i thought that was all . shhhhhhhhhheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet lar . sucks . i think im really going to fail EL this year . and i dont know what the hecks gonna happen to me if i really fail . i can imagine . O: . and i dont want it to happen . ): excuse me while i get killed softly 4:48 PM
Monday, July 21, 2008
Oh crap . i realised my blog contains alot of crappish , rubbish-y and random posts . SHHHHHHHHHHHEEEEEEEEEEEEEET . i think im going crazy . O: i dont know . im having random moood swings . idontknowwhatswrongwithme O: Jervennne , your umbrella came in good use today . thanks loooaaads (: . and F.Y.I i saw alot of them today . HAHA . and i think they saw me toooo O: ! neverminddd . O: . you know, lucky you never go with me . i went home at like, 9pm ?! O: ! hhhahhha . oooohhh . shhhhhhheeeeeeeet . i cant sleep . lit test tomorrow . im going crazy i tell you. im trying to remember all the conv. between the people . i think my head's gonna blow anytime soon . RAHHHH . i feel like roar-ing now . someone, save me O: 10:17 PM
Sunday, July 20, 2008
idontknowidontknowidontknowidontknowidontknow. itsnotenoughtosayimsorrynotenoughtosayimsorrynotenoughtosay imsorrynotenoughtosayimsorry. okay . now, whatswrongwithme? gahrahgahrahgahrahgahrah . idontknowwhatswrongwithmenow. shhhheeeeet . 9:49 PM
SSSSSSSSHHHHHHHHHHHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEYTTTTTTTTT . now i got a problem . i big problem . WHERE THE HECK AM I SUPPPOSE TO FIND AN ADULT in TWO WEEKS TIME TO GO TO SINGFEST WITH ME . HOW , WHERE , WHO . gah . i only realised that just when nicole reminded me in UNDER 16 and i need to be accompanied by an adult . GAGAGAGAGA . HOOOOWWWW . maybe i can just randomly find an adult at the dorr and ask them to pretend they're accompany-ing me to the concert . yes . maybe i'll do just that . O: 10:43 AM
Friday, July 18, 2008
oh crap . i feel so stupid right now . i mean, i was this frustrated for a moment and next moment im laughing for no apparent reason . shooot . and natalie would probably say i am stupid and thats why i feel stupid . gah . SHHHOOOOT . i hate my procratinations . i mean, i keep telling myself im gonna study and yea, tell me which day i actually properly studied . NO . sheeeeet . i think im gonna fail everything afterall . shhhhheeeeeeeeeet . O: . forget about that . talk about today D: gaga. gaga . gaga . okay . i dont know why im gaga-ing . sheeeeet . okay anyway , lunched with Natalie . poor thing lar nat , she's only getting her phone back on monday O: . shhheeeeeeeet i have less one person to annoy over the weekends . gah . okay , more . uh . ICE CREAM :D . lol . um . went to the movies with mummy :D . at Century sq . its nice to spend time with her like this . i mean , its fun lar . she hardly has much time to watch movies with us often so, yea . i hate myself for taking people around me for granted. gah . i just dont know how to show that im not taking them for granted. in the midst of frustration . im going mad . RAH . NOTE: i am not emo-ing . 11:41 PM
Thursday, July 17, 2008
This post's gonna be short but i dont give a blardy damn about it . OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG . I'm OFFICIALLY GOING TO SINGFEST . LIKE, THE TIX's right in front of me and zomg . YAY YAY YAY . DOUBLE YAY ! im going to see SIMPLE PLAN . YAY !! i think i cant breathe like , now . omg omgomg . hahaha . i was super crazy for the past ½hour . i mean, i called nat and screamed at her . HAAHAA . poor xinting, my next victim to tolerate my craziness . OMG . i kept telling them im going for like what ? 20mins ? YES . omg . i cant stop smiling like now . oh , im so going to have a wonderful weekend . :D so, now , im gonna thank all who had been praying for me :D. Rayson ; AIUR , Gerry , Xinting , Natalie and JERVENNE . dont pretend you havent been praying for me . HAHA . i know you have . ONCE again , IM GOING IM GOING IM GOING ! yay . IM GOING :D Labels: IM GOING :D 10:07 PM
Monday, July 14, 2008
Hello ! (: Ohhh , i hope mum gives me a reply SOON . i mean , its gonna be August soon ! shhhoooot . anyway , SINGFest is CHEAP . the ticket price i mean . i've been telling her its worth it because Simple Plan's gonna be there ! yay ! :D:D . its not a WANT anymore . i NEED to go . omg . i REALLY NEEEDDDD to go . (: by the way , aishah, charmaine , linus and xinting, i've linked or relinked you people . (: sorry for taking so long . oh well , you know , i've been lazy . D: and rayson , thanks! :D it was real nice . it reminds me of you when i read the words cos they somehow , uh reminds me of you ? i dont know . esp the Vanessayouremighty that one . the words reminds me more of you instead of me . haha . (: thanks loads ! love ya :D 3:58 PM
Wednesday, July 9, 2008
SINGFEST SINGFEST SINGFEST :D:D:D:D . Praying super super hard now . i hope im praying hard enough so that mum's gonna let me go SINGFEST :D. yay yay yay ! :D:D in return , i cannot spend any money on storybooks , clothes , shoes and bags for the next half year . SHOOOOT . books . i'll die without em . gah . but its worth it for simple plan . :D yay :D omgomgomgomg . (:(: . OHHH . i hope i can go for both days . like , then i can see One Republic , Alicia Keys and OMG . PANIC AT THE DISCO . :D:D:D yay :D:D:D . omg , im soso scared that she'll say NO . and omg , then i dont know what to do . shhhhoooooootttt . pray harder pray harder .. gahhh . OH , and im so proud of myself today :D. i managed to file up all my papers . double YAY . :D my whole table was so darn messy lar. its like lit here, maths there , science all over the place . AND OMG . speaking of subjects . i realised that there's EL TA tmr . shuuttttts . okay, super hyper today . yay yay yay :D . going off now . ssee ya :D 6:42 PM
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
Oh shot . im so fed up with myself . SOSO FED UP . i woke up , couldnt find my hair clip . my hair was flying all over the place and its IRRITATING . gah . went to school and realised i have to rush through lit ppt's script . im so worried that we're gonna flunk it . and double shoot , our IPW ppt is going to crash too . i didnt get to edit it cos my com dont read 2007 . dead . rushing rushing and i realised i havent finished Maths totally . i left out 2 qsts that i dont know how to do. lucky XinTing was there . she completed it for me . (: sorry i din say thanks then . was super fed up . so now , THANKS XINTING :D . shooot . i din know that we had to do science workbook that way. shhoooot . gah . i was going bonkers real soon . and i realised i forgot to print the notes for yatung . 4x SHHHOOOOOT . was really hating myself then . sorry din really apologise properly just now, yatung . sorry ): . super woper FED UP then . gahhh . totally flunked our IPW presentation . i dont quite regret that we didnt have our slides with us then and we only had to say out what we have done . cos i bet Ms Thanng would have been super angry if she saw our slides and we'd probably get 0 for content . our oral presentation was no better. i mean , Shyt , we were NOT making any sense that moment of time . i looked super stupid and i sound super stupid . port folio's my only hope . GAH . was really gonna KILL myself at that time . really . on the verge . but had to rush for tuition . no time to think of dying then . rush rush rush . was still late . Shuttts . half way through tuition , i realised i forgot to watch TV last night ): . i missed SO YOU THINK YOU CAN DANCE . SHOOOOT . hate it lar . hate myself . no wonder time was passing ohsoslowly last night . Gah . today was a total disaster . 9:35 PM
Monday, July 7, 2008
Someone, solve this stupid qst . 3 MEN GO INTO A MOTEL. THE MAN BEHIND THE DESK SAID THE RO OM IS $30, SO EACH MAN PAID $10 AND WENT TO THE ROOM. A WHILE LATER THE MAN BEHIND THE DESK REALIZED THE ROOM WAS ONLY $25, SO HE SENT THE BELLBOY TO THE 3 GUYS' ROOM WITH $5. ON THE WAY, THE BELLB OY COULDN'T FIGURE OUT HOW TO SPLIT $5 EVENLY BETWEEN 3 MEN, SO HE GAVE EACH MAN A $1 AND KEPT THE OTHER $2 FOR HIMSELF. THIS MEANT THAT THE 3 MEN EACH PAID $9 FOR THE ROOM, WHICH IS A TOTAL OF $27, ADD THE $2 THAT THE BELLBOY KEPT = $29. WHERE IS THE OTHER DOLLAR? 9:20 PM
watched The Apprentice the night before . OMGOMG . i was super woper excited and angry when i was watching it . It was so excited luh . omgomg . just watch the way they work ! :D wow . i rrreeeally wish that Nicole's gonna get the job . she's brilliant lar ! :D ( in my opinion) but i think its James' who's gonna get hired instead of Frankie, Nicole & Stefani . I mean, he's kinda the leader and he's been doing real well all this while . Frankie's a way no for me . although i do love the way he does some things . Like his energy & attitude . (: but im still voting for Nicole ! :D Stefani ? i dont like her . some reason idontknowwhat. okay i think im going to stop here . dont wanna sound like some addicted enthusiast . (: Watched Pushing Daisies before The Apprentice and i think its an awesome show (: . Its so sad that Choc and Ned cant actually touch each other . crap i mean , she'll die if he touches her so ah . but its a nice show alright . all the reviving and questioning . :D Sundays are the best days to stay up late to watch TV . :D Okay , coming back to today . Went to Tamp with Norazah . wanted to swim but change of plans , went to the gym above instead . stayed till around 1 pm or so and walked her to the MRT station . (: Love her luh . then uh .met up with Brax & yang and shopped with them while they bought some Tees & shirts . oh and guy shopping is boring . ;) Then mama finally came and we went to get some lunch / tea whatever . walked around , ice creamed and went home . mama's a total retard lar . he could have like told me its his stop already by telling me straight in the face and asking me to return him his phone but he sms-ed me with my phone . i realised bus rides with him are usually especially short for some reason . whatever . Okay , time for me to Random again . i was walking home and then a random thought striked me . i was suddenly thinking about classes of people . or castes or whatever they call it . i think its unfair . i thought people are to live in equality and like, yes , live equally amongst each other . we are all humans afterall and i think people are of lower class than another person only when they think they are . i dont think people should like, look down upon each other or anything. its just not nice . just some random thoughts . Thanks for your kind patience if you happen to read to the end of this post . i know its crappy and long and not very nice and worth to read but you were nice and you read it all . Love you for that and you deserve a round of applause and a pat on the shoulder . ;D LOVE YOU ! <3 7:48 PM
Saturday, July 5, 2008
Hello :D yesterday was fun ;D . basically, it was Express Yourself Day and its nice to see people dress up in all sorts of weird clothings. our class had some themes uh. such as goth, nerds :D , slumber and mostly casual for the others. ;D i dressed goth and i think i looked ghastly . black lips make me look like i've drank poison or something. alot of people in our class highlighted their hair with pink hair spray . My nails are still black and its freaking me out. Our teacher wasnt too happy about that . she was saying that we're only 13 so we should act like we are 13 . but its Express Yourself Day after all . just let us have some fun for a day wont hurt . she was critising the way we were dressing . esp the goths and those in Pjs . she said people who like to sleep are wasting their time away. and another teacher was saying we put so much effort in dressing up yet she dont see us put so much effort into our work and such. i went for the individual thing and it was super woper embarrassing and i din regret not putting on my specs when i went on stage . couldnt see anything w/o my specs so yay :D din see anything when i was on stage. i din know what to do lol . i was like uh, super blur and kinda felt like stoning over there . im happy it was only a few seconds long on stage. the teachers were super funny when they went up on stage in their uniforms and cat walked + dance . haha . today was great and im happy i actually dressed up . (: Me & Blos :D ( Edited the post & replaced the picture )  The Nerdies :D. omg, i think they're like the best lar :D . so cute ;D  i like elfa's hair and sarah's specs . so nerd-ish . :D i din catch any picture of maryam . i should have . grr.. she looked so 80s ! :D 9:44 AM
Thursday, July 3, 2008
Hello . (: i dont know who i said hello to and i doubt anyone would see this and i had a couple of a mood swings today . yea . weird person i am (: . i guess thats the only thing Natalie has even gotten right on :D . Cant wait for lessons to pass . i mean, going to CCK stadium for nationals . not expecting to get anything but its gonna be fun right ? its nice even if its just for experience . we were discussing what to wear for tmr's express yourself day. im gonna be a laughing stock. i mean, we're going goth . :D its cool but . im not made for goth. goth people are FAIR . and super woper uberly FAIR . and im like the exact opposite ? im not charcoal but im tanned and UN-FAIR ( as in the colour tone) . and WHO HAS EVER SEEN A GOTH WHO WEARS SPECS . i tried it out just now like the black eye liner and lip pencil. i think its cool not that i think that i look nice but i think black is the best colour ever. and i look uberly stupid wearing specs over eye liners . it sucked . im looking for contacts and i think im not gonna succeed . okay turning back time ... We were discussing ... then uh , it was EL . its was boring . but i cant do nothing about it . mdm tan aint someone to cross . oh well . Mrs low / loh ? no idea . geog . bored to death . its just boring somehow . gah . then SEL . din really do much and i went off half way just to change into CAT tee , vest , fbt . din really ate anything during recess . met up Lenis and Cassandra . Went to canteen then i ate sandwiches + Lime juice (:. going offf rreeal soon (: . finally we're in Ms wong's car . she dont listen to radio . maybe because it broke down but yar . she doesnt like to listen. didnt really slept in the car . was just shutting up my eyes forcing myself to think that im asleep . i realised we reached CCK real fast . warmed up, did drills , warm up throws . OOOO . it started and we were throwing . first throw; 15.96 . that was way over my PB and im happy . but i was real nervous at that point of time . i was trying real hard to BREATHE and well , breathe. i was just nervous and i was trying hard not to break down and cry . if i just closed my eyes and like let myself be, im going to go bonkers and cry and stop breathing . i tried . and i did better than i did the previous time. im satisfied but not happy enough . maybe i would have felt better if i got into top8 but i think thats kinda impossible so yea. Like Beatrice said . im still YOUNG :D . not being ego or anything. i can still work harder and go again next year. no harm trying . (: had a great time throwing today .(: Lenis & Cassandra, dont feel sad or anything okay ? i dont know how or what to say but dont feel sad . you guys are great (: to me atleast :D Went to Lotone to eat KFC after that . felt super anti social . ate alone for quite awhile . din really feel like talking then . suddenly , i realised i was sms-ing 6 different people at a time . gosh . and yea, thanks to all of them . they made me feel not so much anti social and actually made me laugh . ;D love em all . ;D Okay . i hate reading LONG POSTS and i dont think much people will like to do that too . i mean, its Boring . whats more by me . oh well . you can jolly well close the window now if you feel bored . cos im ending already. thanks if you have been reading all along . for your patience and everything. Thanks (: <3 you ! 10:12 PM
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